I am usually a very cautious person. I never take up dares, I never do spur of the moment things, and I am VERY schedule-oriented. If things are not according to my schedule, I freak out. That’s why I get mad when people are late.
Anyway, I really really want to throw caution to the wind. I want to be impetuous, rebel, and live for the moment. For just one day. Or a week. Would things end in chaos? Would I regret my impulsive decision to be impetuous? Most probably.
But I still want to see what it’s like.
I also want to go back to the mall and buy a dress I tried on the other day. I don’t feel like calculating the costs and I want to stop being afraid of spending money. Maybe I will go back and buy it. I really liked it.
I want to do something crazy. Something I would never do in a right state of mind. Something that doesn’t seem like me. Like sing at the top of my lungs in the rain at the beach. Or wear something I consider to be scandalous and then go to the zoo or a museum in it. Or dye my hair blue…..
This is hard. I can’t think of cool things to do. This just means I never considered doing crazy, weird things before. All the more reason to do them. Must think of more…